Hand In My Pocket

那天在MixFM 听到这首歌。上网查了一下。
疯这首歌的那年，是1995年。

14 年前的事。

I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone

很 folky blues 的一首歌，和大家一起分享。

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

Pray

Don't pray for an easy life;

Pray to be a strong person.

...and I am getting stronger and stronger,

each day.

Jatuh?Lompat? Ditolak?

多年前，他从扣留所出来的时候，一边眼睛明显被打伤。
他们说，是他自己弄伤的。

多年以后，一名大好青年离奇坠楼身亡。
他们说，谁知道他会跑去跳楼。

跑新闻跑到最‘前锋’的马来报新闻标题：Jatuh atau lompat?
为什么不写 ditolak?

后来那个“雪州不懂反什么反出人命的局”的主席说，“雪州不懂反什么反出人命的局”不会对这起身亡事件负责。

然后有几条水跑出来说：“警方会以十分专业、透明手法进行调查。调查工作必须在不受任何势力干扰下，公开並公正的进行。”

“我们只要真相，也要为赵明福家人討回公道；我对赵明福坠楼死亡感到很伤心，希望执法单位能公正的履行职务，不受任何因素影响。”

“希望大家不要把这起事件政治化。”

我的心情，从开始的惊讶，悲伤，到现在的悲愤。赵明福就是大马民主人权纪录最好的KPI。

至于那些花圈，还是留给‘你们’自己用吧！

图片来源：星洲日报

You are playing with fire!

Perhaps, the above mentioned title is the last thing one may want to hear from others, at least the last thing you want to hear from your head of department.

So this is what my immediate was telling us before the meeting：

Try to use all the possitive words when you are talking to him. The moment he increases his volume, you should stop talking and listen to him. If he starts to scold you, you just keep quite, let him scold.

"You are playing with fire!" ,said my Head of Department.

He said this to me, in front of the rest of the team, right after 1 to 2 minutes after i started the opening of my campaigns performance review, way before the actual performance were shared.

You should look at your own face after I showed you the forecast result until the end of this year.

Next time you want to scold me again, scold me with facts and figures. Don't fire me just because you can, or you want to.

Departures

耀眼的阳光，西下过后，又可以怎样？
喧哗的红地毯，人群散落后，还可以怎样？
胜利的欢呼后，剩下了什么？
狂欢过后，你又拥有了什么？

最后的最后，谁又能带走云彩？

死亡，只是生命的另一个阶段的另一个起点。

Always By Your Side

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
My demons and my angels reappear
Leavin' only traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I always feared
Leavin' you with only questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

给爸爸

那年3月28日，我觉得你接受了一项很吃亏的任务
这项任务 24/7 随时standby 没有年假 没有bonus 最重要的是 没有工资
我也无视法律的程序 劳工法令的条款
在没有给你签下offer letter 的情况下
硬硬要你接下这个工作 - 我的父亲

小时候我总觉得你是一个很厉害的人
你总会读很多我不懂的生字
你知道所有数学题的答案
你知道戏里头的鬼是假的
你甚至知道那个看起来很好人的圣诞老人是人扮的
最重要的是 你养活了一只经常生病的病猫（本人）

后来长大了
我慢慢的发觉你也并不是那么得厉害
曾经有一段日子 我会因为家里的欠缺而把责任推在你的身上
却没有一丝的体谅
渐渐地 你老了
是的 你累了
没想到你休息的那天 竟然是你咽下最后一口气的时候

而我
却不曾让你知道
不曾亲口告诉你
爸 我爱你

虽然你离开了
但很多时候 我都感觉到你的存在

二姐的婚宴 you were there
我在台上表演 you were there
you were there我的毕业典礼
我上班的第一天 you were there
you were there 那次很重要的 presentation
我和妈到上海 you were there
you were there 妹上大学的那天

还有 you will be there
每年的团圆饭

我不晓得我是否让你感到骄傲
但我会因为是你的儿子 而感到自豪

爸， 父亲节快乐。