Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Always By Your Side


My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
My demons and my angels reappear
Leavin' only traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I always feared
Leavin' you with only questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

Sunday, June 21, 2009

给爸爸


那年3月28日,我觉得你接受了一项很吃亏的任务
这项任务 24/7 随时standby 没有年假 没有bonus 最重要的是 没有工资
我也无视法律的程序 劳工法令的条款
在没有给你签下offer letter 的情况下
硬硬要你接下这个工作 - 我的父亲

小时候我总觉得你是一个很厉害的人
你总会读很多我不懂的生字
你知道所有数学题的答案
你知道戏里头的鬼是假的
你甚至知道那个看起来很好人的圣诞老人是人扮的
最重要的是 你养活了一只经常生病的病猫(本人)

后来长大了
我慢慢的发觉你也并不是那么得厉害
曾经有一段日子 我会因为家里的欠缺而把责任推在你的身上
却没有一丝的体谅
渐渐地 你老了
是的 你累了
没想到你休息的那天 竟然是你咽下最后一口气的时候

而我
却不曾让你知道
不曾亲口告诉你
爸 我爱你

虽然你离开了
但很多时候 我都感觉到你的存在

二姐的婚宴 you were there
我在台上表演 you were there
you were there我的毕业典礼
我上班的第一天 you were there
you were there 那次很重要的 presentation
我和妈到上海 you were there
you were there 妹上大学的那天

还有 you will be there
每年的团圆饭

我不晓得我是否让你感到骄傲
但我会因为是你的儿子 而感到自豪

爸, 父亲节快乐。