Honey Bee

I am a honey bee
Shunned off from the colony
And they won't let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I'll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I'll just sing with the birds
They'll tell me secrets of the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn't wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I'll come save you
Even if it means I'll have to face the queen

So I'll come prepared
My new friends say they would help me
Get my loved one back
They say it isn't right
The bees have control of your mind
But I choose not to believe that
So we'll meet in the darkness of the night
And I'll promise I will be there on time
We'll be guided by my new friends the butterflies
Bring us back to our own little hive

Oh my other honey bee
No longer stuck where he doesn't wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I have saved you
And now that you're with me
We can make our own honey

by Zee Avi

一起走

你说，一个人走回家的感觉很不好受。

结果昨晚我陪你走了一段回家的路。

一起走，一起走。

Solstice

如果不是同事们都准备回家做‘大日子’，我还真的不晓得今天是冬至。知道后，还真的有种’今昔是何年’的感觉。坦白说，我还是对什么时候是公假来的更有兴趣。嘻嘻。。。

回家路上，妈来电。

妈：“有吃汤圆吗？”

我：“没有。我不知道今天是冬至呢！”

妈：“去买回家自己煮一点啊！ 冬大过年。吃了汤圆就大一岁了。哈哈。。。”

还记得小时候妈在冬至做大日子的情景，还有我们几个瓜玩/搓汤圆的时候。我和妹最喜欢将不同颜色的糯米团搓成五颜六色、大大小小的汤圆。看着一粒粒的汤圆在沸水中滚烫着，还真有种莫名的成就感呢！

有的没的跟妈聊了一下，没多久，就到家了。

没有汤圆的冬至也没什么的，反正不用’大一岁‘。哈哈。。。又赚到一年了！

冬至快乐。

Hand In My Pocket

那天在MixFM 听到这首歌。上网查了一下。
疯这首歌的那年，是1995年。

14 年前的事。

I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone

很 folky blues 的一首歌，和大家一起分享。

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

Pray

Don't pray for an easy life;

Pray to be a strong person.

...and I am getting stronger and stronger,

each day.

Jatuh?Lompat? Ditolak?

多年前，他从扣留所出来的时候，一边眼睛明显被打伤。
他们说，是他自己弄伤的。

多年以后，一名大好青年离奇坠楼身亡。
他们说，谁知道他会跑去跳楼。

跑新闻跑到最‘前锋’的马来报新闻标题：Jatuh atau lompat?
为什么不写 ditolak?

后来那个“雪州不懂反什么反出人命的局”的主席说，“雪州不懂反什么反出人命的局”不会对这起身亡事件负责。

然后有几条水跑出来说：“警方会以十分专业、透明手法进行调查。调查工作必须在不受任何势力干扰下，公开並公正的进行。”

“我们只要真相，也要为赵明福家人討回公道；我对赵明福坠楼死亡感到很伤心，希望执法单位能公正的履行职务，不受任何因素影响。”

“希望大家不要把这起事件政治化。”

我的心情，从开始的惊讶，悲伤，到现在的悲愤。赵明福就是大马民主人权纪录最好的KPI。

至于那些花圈，还是留给‘你们’自己用吧！

图片来源：星洲日报

You are playing with fire!

Perhaps, the above mentioned title is the last thing one may want to hear from others, at least the last thing you want to hear from your head of department.

So this is what my immediate was telling us before the meeting：

Try to use all the possitive words when you are talking to him. The moment he increases his volume, you should stop talking and listen to him. If he starts to scold you, you just keep quite, let him scold.

"You are playing with fire!" ,said my Head of Department.

He said this to me, in front of the rest of the team, right after 1 to 2 minutes after i started the opening of my campaigns performance review, way before the actual performance were shared.

You should look at your own face after I showed you the forecast result until the end of this year.

Next time you want to scold me again, scold me with facts and figures. Don't fire me just because you can, or you want to.